Crossdreaming Thoughts

Crossdreaming ThoughtsLast week I crossdressed for a while. Wore tight dark green jeggings, and two different shirts. I was barely able to squeeze these huge fucking J cup tits into a basically skin tight size XS stretchy nylon beige tshirt, and the other was an olive green turtleneck of the same tight fit. Wore both inside and outside. Took a short walk before sunrise. Felt so good. I really need to take photos of these shirts?.they?re tighter fitting than any of the shirts I?m wearing in my current photos. I have a lot of things to take photos of and many of my followers have been asking about it. Really busy with personal life stuff at the moment but I'm taking note of what I need to do and eventually I'll have time. When I do crossdress I feel that I?m in a body thats all female except for my constantly hard shemale cock. I?m sure all crossdressers and crossdreamers have a certain particular look we want to have if we could do it.For me its having real breasts that look like my breast forms. The tits are a part of me, not just silicone breast forms. They make me feel like a woman. The same general size with huge nipples always erect. With a firm shape but a noticable droop so they always have a natural, braless look to them. I?d never dare wear a bra with boobs like these anyway. Let them shake and bounce however they want. Never supress my big nipples.I?d like to have a few different types of hair. But if I could only choose one it would be hair that starts out as black near the scalp for a few inches, and the rest of it is a dark brown-reddish auburn. I could style it either straight or wavy. Have it grown long, cut at medium shoulder length, or cut short. Recently I've fallen in love with two-tone hair like this. I've also always liked tones of auburn.I want the very wide, curvy, feminine hips of a mature woman, swaying side to side. Very thick, firm thighs that are larger than the size of my waist. A very tight bubble butt, like two big, round orbs. My ass jiggling with every step taken in the skin tight, stretchy shorts, jeans, or yoga pants I can barely squeeze myself into. I know my boobs will be the main thing I'm known for to most people if this were real. But I certainly want the development of my hips, thighs, and ass to be on the same level as my tits.I also want a bigger cock and balls. A penis with the foreskin still on it. To have a big, hard dick like a shemale like Sara Salazar (certainly one of my favorite girl cocks; I truly want her to shoot cum in my anus and down my throat) would be the best. Maybe even bigger. Why not? So even when flaccid it would be bulging like crazy. Bigger than some guys with a full erection. Even better without panties, which I wouldn?t wear most of the time anyway. Only for fashion. When I do get hard its gonna be a foot long. I want it to snake down my tight pants, halfway to my knee. Nuts will be the big, heavy, low-hangers. Hairless, smooth, and full of semen. The source of all of that testosterone that makes me so horny. One testicle almost the same size as some of these inferior men's whole ballsack. A dick and nuts this big hanging between my legs will feel and look so fucking good with these wide hips, thick thighs, and my huge ass. Not ashamed at all if the bulge is like a throbbing log in my pants that gets out of control. More pleasure for me and anyone who enjoys looking. The more I know someone is looking, the harder it's going to get.Along with a bikini top I would just roll my big soft cock up and stuff it in that kind of thong pouch that men wear. There?s nothing wrong with it if men can wear it in public and show off. So why should I hide my dick? So they don?t get jealous because its bigger than theirs? Or so those ?straight? men don?t stare at my bulge and get thoughts of wanting to see me pull my gurl cock and nuts out of my bikini?? Seeing how big it can really get?? Wondering how big of a load I can shoot if I jerked off for them????