That Awkward Question

?You are going to have to push Mrs. Oakley,? the Doctor said, peering up from behind his mask between Farrah?s spread legs, ?On three, okay?? The moment had finally come and Farrah was so nervous she wanted to vomit right then and there. Her husband, Jeremey, was right beside her, holding her hand like had promised, encouraging her as he had promised, waiting for his newborn son to come into this world. ?One.? Farrah felt so dizzied she might pass out. It was finally happening. All these long months of waiting, of worrying, had come to this. ?Two.? She was about to be a mother. Something she had only dreamed of, but all the fear was welling inside of her making her want to burst. ?Three.? Farrah?s body wretched and contorted as the baby began to come from inside of her. She could see the doctor slowly cradling a new life as the pain threshold far passed what she could withstand and she squeezed Jeremy?s hand so hard she heard tiny cracks as bones in his finger broke. Farrah screamed bloody murder as the child pushed its way into this world. Suddenly, the pain diminished and a tiny, barely audible cry filled the delivery room. The doctor turned on heel to clean the child and detach the umbilical cord, but in mere seconds Farrah and Jeremy were about to meet their new child. The doctor turned to present the child, but Farrah could see it in his eyes. He hesitated in the slightest. She felt her throat collapse and her stomach surge with fresh bile ready to vomit once more. It turned out actions did have consequences.***** Farrah was a twenty-six-year-old redhead with a penchant for jogging. Her ginger hair bobbed back and forth in a tight pony tail, swinging like a pendulum from side to side as she ran. Every morning it was the same routine, one mile down Main St, a left onto Maple for two miles, cut down Pine for three-quarters of a mile, and then the home stretch down Juniper for a grueling two and half mile finish. The six and a quarter mile journey usually took her fifty minutes. Despite her good cardio routine, Farrah had anything but a runners? body. She wasn?t pencil thin or cut with abs, but a had a normal, slim figure that still allowed for womanly curves in her hips and jiggly C-cup breasts that had to be restrained with a tight, black or purple or red or blue sports bra while she ran. She usually wore dark yoga pants and track shoes, exposing her entire mid-section as she ran, something, that despite making her feel confident in herself, also attracted some unwanted attention. It was on this particular morning that Farrah had her worst encounter yet. A man was blocking her path only one hundred yards in front of her. He had the hood of his sweatshirt up, his pants baggy and loose, and both of his hands in his pockets. She couldn?t see his face, but he was walking towards her, moving oddly, like he was drunk. Farrah slowed, trying to come up with a plan to evade him, but the traffic on Main St. was too dense to cross. She took a deep breath, worried istanbul travesti about this man for a reason she couldn?t put her hand on. Twenty feet, then ten, she would be passing him any second. She tucked her head down, her ear plugs firmly in, trying not to make eye contact when suddenly his arm snapped out and grabbed her across her belly and pulled her towards him. Farrah was now pressed against his chest, his fingers across her stomach and his other hand now drawing a knife to her throat. ?Give me your fucking wallet,? he screamed in her ear, his voice squeaky and awkwardly high-pitched. ?I?I don?t have anything on me!? Farrah said. ?Bullshit!? her assailant barked, the knife pressing thinly to her throat now. His hand slipped from her stomach up and now grabbed at her breast while he playfully laughed in her ear. ?Well if you don?t have money to offer?? Farrah panicked. It was broad daylight. Cars were driving past her. How could this be happening? She felt her attacker attempt to drag her off the side of the road towards bushes when suddenly his hand and body vanished. She heard a grunt, a heavy hit and then something collapse before she worked up the courage to turn around. When she did, a tall man in runners? gear greeted her, with her would-be attacked lying flat on the pavement. ?Are you okay?? he asked, extending a hand. ?Y-yes.? Farrah said cautiously, still traumatized. ?Meth head,? he said, calmly, ?Shits been getting into this neighborhood for years.? ?Oh.? Farrah said, it was all she could muster. ?I don?t mean to tell you what to do, but if I were a young, attractive woman like yourself, I?d either start running a different route, or bring a friend when coming down this way.? ?T-thanks,? Farrah said. The stranger smiled again, ?You want me to walk you home?? ?Yeah,? Farrah stammered, ?That would be great.?***** The doctor stopped, instead handing the infant to one of the nurses who quickly escorted it out of the room. ?Where are you taking him?? Jeremy pleaded, ?Is everything okay?? ?Everything is perfectly fine, Mr. Oakley,? the doctor said reassuringly, her calm smile somewhat appeasing Jeremy. Farrah was frozen. Looking at her hands instead of the doctor or Jeremy. ?I actually just want to check up on Mrs. Oakley if you don?t mind while the baby is getting its routine check-up. Ten minutes? tops, and then you can see him.? ?Oh, okay.? Jeremy said, looking to his wife and then the doctor. ?Ten minutes,? she repeated. Jeremy quickly left the room. Farrah felt like ice had starting growing from the ceiling like stalactites. The door closed behind Jeremy and the doctor sat down at the end of Farrah?s bed, undoing to gadgets that kept her legs open. Farrah felt relief when she could finally close her legs again. ?I?ve seen this before,? the doctor said, ?And it?s always an awkward question, but?is that your husbands baby?? Farrah felt the terror blocking her windpipe. ?You can be honest, Mrs. Oakley. You istanbul travesti have doctor-patient confidentiality. I only ask because in the past, we?ve had?violent?confrontations over this sort of thing.? Farrah felt like she had a scarlet letter on her hospital gown as plain as anyone to see. How could she have done this? ?No.? she said at last, the words feeling like razors as they ripped past her lips, ?The baby is not his.?***** Farrah was twenty-eight years old and had just moved in with her new husband Jeremy Oakley in a nicer part of town that she had been in before. No more meth heads, much less harassment from guys on the street. It was quiet, gated community. Still, the redheads? routine had made its way to her new place. Two miles down the cul de sac, a mile down Leister Path, a half mile across Manchester Way, and then the grueling two and half miles down Abbey Road. She had slowed to fifty-five minutes in her age. Her sports bra still firmly held her jiggling breasts, her yoga pants showed off her strong frame, and her flat, but not ripped, stomach was exposed, tiny, tiny ripples of skin bouncing as she jogged. Sweat had plastered her red hair firmly to her skull and her blue eyes seemed to sag as her pale flesh turned pink in the sun. She was nearing the end of her run now, most of the way down Abbey Road back to the end of the cul de sac where she and Jeremy lived when something stopped her dead in her tracks. ?Holy shit,? she said, too loudly, from the sidewalk, ?It?s you.? A tall gentlemen turned around from watering his yard to see Farrah standing as he had last seen her, sports bra and yoga pants, sweating, but at least this time she was smiling. The guy smiled warmly, ?It looks like you found a different route after all.? Farrah laughed, blushing. Why was she blushing? ?When did you move in here?? she said, pulling the ear buds from her ears so she could hear him over the thump of hip hop. ?About a year ago,? he said, ?My girlfriend and I had a tough falling out and I needed a fresh start.? ?I?m sorry to hear that,? Farrah said, ?So you live in this sweet house all alone?? He laughed, ?Yeah, the ultimate bachelor pad I guess. What about you? You seeing anyone?? Farrah froze, still blushing and overheated from her run, ?No.? She laughed. Why the hell did she lie? ?We should get a drink sometime, then?? Farrah felt panic from her lie. Why did she say she was single? Her husband and her lived only down the block. ?Maybe,? she said, with a wry smile, as she hurriedly stuffed the ear buds back in her ears and sprinted away.***** ?Maybe he won?t notice,? Farrah said. ?I?m sorry, Mrs. Oakley,? ?Please call me Farrah.? ?I?m sorry Farrah, but it can?t be explained as coincidence. ?However, we have?made exceptions?for women who are looking to avoid any confrontation. People make mistakes. This is no different.? ?What do you mean?? Farrah asked. ?We?ve referred to this sorts of ?miracles? as genetic anomalies before. istanbul travesti Usually we can convince the male partner that some part of either of your DNA laid dormant from a long ago ancestor to explain why the child is?much?much darker than both parents.? Farrah looked up with tears in her eyes, not believing what was happening to her. She loved Jeremy. She loved him to bits. It had been a one-time thing she wanted to tell herself she regretted but she didn?t. It was wonderful. It was one of the best nights of her life, but she had hoped dearly she wouldn?t have to pay for it. When she found out she was pregnant just six weeks later she spent every night of her pregnancy worried and hoping the baby would be Jeremy's and her secret, a mistake that she would never repeat, would never be revealed. ?You have to decide what to do, Farrah. The baby will be here in two minutes, and if you think it?s hard to explain to me what happened. It?s going to be much harder to explain to Mr. Oakley.?***** Farrah sat at the bar in a shirt she hadn?t worn since Junior Year of college. It was tight, it had a deeper V in the neck than she cared for. It revealed her stomach which looked even paler in the soft lighting. She looked nothing like married financial advisor living in the suburbs and more like a ditzy slut. Why had she dressed like this? She had told herself it was just going to be a drink?or two?and that she would slip in that she was seeing someone and quash any romantic feelings he might have for her. Her head felt fuzzy once he came up to her, dressed in a nice button down and slacks, looking good next to her now. ?I will say you sure aren?t shy of showing off that tight body of yours, Farrah,? ?Thanks, Jackson,? she said, blushing again. Why did he have this effect on her? She had thought about it a long time after she agreed to have a drink with him. Had it been because he had saved her? Did she feel like she owed him something? No, that?s not it. She just saw him, tall, strong, handsome, and had just saved her and something inside of her had made an instinctive attraction to him. By the end of Farrah?s third drink she still hadn?t mentioned Jeremy. Or a boyfriend. Or the fact that she didn?t plan on going home with him. After dancing on the floor with him for an hour, she had to tell herself she wasn?t going home with him. When he invited her back to his place, she told herself she wasn?t going to sleep with him. Nothing was going to happen.***** Jeremey was back in the room and the doctor had gone to fetch their son. He looked worried, he kept asking Farrah if she was okay and she kept assuring him she was, even if that was furthest from the truth. ?I?m so excited to meet our baby boy!? Jeremy said with the boyish wonder than she enjoyed. His smile was so handsome. He was so kind and warm-hearted. She was about to destroy him. Farrah felt her spinal cord tense to the point it may have well bent into an ?S? shape when the doors hinges creaked open and the doctor strolled in with a bundled child. ?Ready to meet your son?? she said, holding the baby outstretched to Farrah. Farrah opened her arms, now finally seeing the mocha colored skin of her baby as the doctor laid him into her arms. Her own, creamy Irish flesh contrasted against her child.